We closed Part 1 of the Freedom Path with Freedom from Thought. This huge concept is much of the mindfulness movement’s teachings. But what happens when you discover that your thoughts are full of suffering from your life? What if your thoughts are emotions that inspire your actions? What if these emotions drive every aspect of how you choose to live? This is where we pick up my path to freedom - from my hidden emotional turmoil. 

Lesson 5: Freedom from Anger

― Martin Luther King Jr.

I recall saying to my best friend as we forged our new adult paths: “We are now adults, it is our choice to be the person that we want to be free from what our parents did or did not do to us as kids. We know that they are imperfect and we can accept that. So we can let go of our anger and get on with our own life.”It is fairly impossible to pass through life without experiencing anger at the injustices of the world. But I had internalised my childhood anger into depression by seven years old. I never saw myself as angry. Thankfully, a brain injury releases control of the mind and emotions. I would lose my temper in angry frustration at everyone - could they not see how fortunate their life was to have things that they took for granted? I had met my anger at 31 and she was a really pissy chihuahua! To stay in this anger is detrimental, literally, my migraines worsened. To act from this anger is detrimental. My expressed anger only made me feel less positive about my life and more of a victim. As another of Martin Luther King Jr.’s famous quotes: 

“DARKNESS CANNOT DRIVE OUT DARKNESS; ONLY LIGHT CAN DO THAT. HATE CANNOT DRIVE OUT HATE; ONLY LOVE CAN DO THAT”

Thankfully, none of my friends held against me these outbursts during this time - such compassion they showed me. So, with this in mind, I delved into loving-kindness and compassion practices. I met my anger with a hug and thanks to Lama Tsultrim Allione fed my demons with what they needed. I practiced Tonglen Meditation to connect to the pains of those that had ‘failed’ me in my life and to receive their compassion graciously. There is always more injustice in the world to become angry about, but does it serve the world for me to be angry? Does it serve freedom for all to act from my anger? No. I am free when I see the world through eyes of love and choose to act from compassion rather than my anger. 

Lesson 6: Freedom from Fear

 There is power in a quote of someone who has lived under house arrest or in solitary confinement and knows what it is to live in physical prison and freedom. For mental health sufferers, the prison is the mind and it is filled with fears. I recall at 14 being guided through a beautiful fluffy cloud visualisation in drama class, but for me, it turned into hell, and I was so freaked out I left the class in tears. I have seen this with some clients suffering from depression in a yoga nidra - their mind cannot control the darkness that it falls into regardless of how sweet the visualisation. My experience and training have shown me that it is vital to anchor the mind in the body in meditative practices before ‘going out’ for journeys. 

Fears find us in many ways. I have shared mine about deep water (in other blogs to be re-released) and how I use surfing to face this fear every time. But there is another way that fear visits me. Night terror dreams whilst my body is in paralysis that you do not need to know about their details. I would wake exhausted, anxious, and terrified from my night of sleep - literally vomiting as my vagus nerve was so distressed. It took most of the day to feel calm and become functional. How could I heal this deep subconscious fear? After many healing treatments, I spoke with a psychotherapist who specializes in Carl Jung’s work and dreams. She agreed my conscious mind was well trained, so suggested Clarity Breathwork for deep subconscious transformation. The journey was profound. So much fear was released with ease due to the intense connection to Spirit that shone upon my shadows. 

 Lesson 7: Freedom is the Courage to be Responsible 

I was given Marianne Williamson’s famous quote by the woman who supported my brain wave therapy in 2013 (see below). This always resonated so true for me and is a steady path of inte, but it is a long and complex quote to enact. The final step is what has been said by many - the courage to claim and be responsible for yourself fully. In the Gene Keys, the shadow frequency of Freedom is Victimisation. The victim blames others and never takes responsibility for themselves. The victim only sees ‘the other’ who wronged them. They do not see that their fears delude them from their own power of free choice - the choice to be responsible for their thoughts and feelings, the courage to choose a reaction for themselves, the freedom to experience and recall it as they wish to live.

― Bernard Shaw

Radical Forgiveness is beautiful teaching with the core concept that each unpleasant situation is a lesson to be learned. The individual must step back to see the larger perspective throughout life, forgive the actions and parties for merely doing their part in the roles of the lesson. Then step out of blaming others and to act differently to become free from the lesson repeating in life. I further find ‘The Bhagavad Gita’ (a yogi philosophical story on attaining liberation and ending the karmic cycles of life) teaches the courage of self-responsibility. There are many ways to attain freedom but whilst in a body, we must act. How to act is the important lesson here. The answer is action without attachment to the outcome. That means goals without a SMART outcome! Yes, no sense-desires, expectations, judgments, opinions, results, or materials. Just allow the outcome to unfold with a neutral response. 

Increasingly I notice that my stress comes from an expectation of ‘doing’. Whether this expectation is ‘doing’ a social media post or current political issues around our freedoms of lockdown and expression to protest. This stress may compel me to act and this may be an important cause that I support, but am I attached in some way to the action I took? If my action is driven from guilt, fear or anger then I just add more of that energy to the collective pot (remembering that anger does not drive out anger). My sense-desires seek an outcome, so my karma is not free.    As my ayahuasca experience showed me, my soul seeks to be free to dance in the delight of all experiences. It does not care for judging them. My freedom comes from the courage in my choice in how I think, feel and act. My fullness of who I am is owning these choices. For me, freedom is a staged process. I must consciously choose my thoughts, feelings and actions to align to the peace within me. My peaceful acts come from unconditional love. Those actions are in alignment with who I am. I am responsible to act from only this place. My courage may not be to act but to do my self-work on coming back to my peacefulness. Then when I act from peace, I am always free. I only create karma that leads me to further freedom. My freedom is your freedom. 

I called myself a karma guide because I support others in how to be free. To choose the individual path to freedom is a unique journey for each of us in this lifetime. There is no one path or way. Just individual choices towards or away from what sets you free in each moment. 

Guidance Is Here 

The time of a Guide is here. Someone that has walked the path that you are on, who supports your way and approach that is your unique way. A person who models what you seek to become and is present to your timing. Do not continue alone. If you seek true freedom then it is time for us to talk. The Luminous Life program is uniquely designed to you for you. It offers all my modalities and much more that intuitively comes through me for you. What is stopping you? Now is your time to contribute through living your freedom. 

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