THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN HIDING AND GETTING LOSTJun 20, 2022
You may feel ‘lost’ in this busy world of being told what to do, how to be, where to go and who to spend time with. Perhaps you are not lost, but merely hiding beneath veils of shadows and protection? Discover 7 simple ways to find yourself below.
The movie ‘Joy’ directed by David O Russellis about a woman who invented the self-cleaning mop thanks to her faith in listening to herself despite what others said. This movie reminded me of my intention when I left the UK to get so lost that I would find my home in my heart.
There is a difference between getting lost and hiding:
(i) When lost you have trust in how you can handle what you might discover. That you can take the necessary steps to find your way.
(ii) When hiding there is a fear that does not want you to be found, a continual block that slows down your path of connecting to your truth.
What is Hiding?
As a child my mind was full of demons – nightmares and fears of hiding creatures in the windmill, I was plagued as a child by these energies all around me. My family were kind rational people and could not understand this energetic world I was experiencing. I could not explain why when asked to think of a fluffy cloud, dragons would swoop and breathe fire to burn me alive. They all wanted to attack me.
As a result, I used to hide in various cupboards in our windmill. I could sit there for hours in the hope that someone would come to look for me, I even managed to properly lock myself in one for a few hours once. However, often no one came and I was just alone in the dark. I was angry but did not know this was anger. Angry that no one came to find me. Nobody wanted to save me.
I felt very alone. A conspiracy world against me. I was a victim. Isolated in fear of my own mind that attacked me regardless of how I tried to think. This is depression. Your mind attacks you. It hates you. You have no control. So I hid.
Common causes of hiding from yourself arise throughout life with the core need to be accepted, liked, fit in and have friends. Each choice to obtain external approval and validation is a chip away from our heart’s calling and another veil of a belief that we are in some way undeserving.
“You wander from room to room hunting for the diamond necklace that is already around your neck” ~ Rumi
What is Getting Lost?
About 2 years after my brain injury I began to realise that I was getting lost in the process of healing from my injury. Focused on rebuilding my life to get a job again and be independent I took an unusual step - I decided to be vulnerable and really admit that I needed help.
Whatever I was trying to do to heal, it was the ‘trying’ that kept making me sick again. The only real healing was ‘being’.
I reduced to a maximum of 5 things per day, the goal of nature each day, discovering tarot reading and journaling began to allow me to just be in the moment. I could admit that I had no idea what was going on in my life. I had no goal other than to take care of myself to the best ability. I began to feel free.
Getting lost is a part of being in the present moment. To allow the past and future not to control the current activity. To allow for the variable outcomes and not procrastinate or procrastinate about any of it. It is to find joy in relinquishing control and being fully present in the experience.
In Buddhism, this is ‘aimlessness’ or apraṇihita which Thích Nhất Hạnh principally taught where attention is given to the sensory experience of the present moment rather than the thoughts about the experience.
Why get lost?
This is the endless cycle of surrendering. As humans, we feel motivated when we contribute and have a meaningful life. This can lead to the ego taking control and ‘doing’ to ensure outcomes sought that will bring perceived desired feelings of fulfillment.
This can work and is a cycle of life that creates or backfire into the misery of depression. As my partner loves to quote “The road to hell is paved with good intentions” so should we pursue a path of contribution?
Is the action from the heart’s calling or the ego’s desire to hide? To surrender each intention and give it up, is to not act from the mind but to allow the action to flow from deep within the present moment. To get out of the way, and get lost in the present moment I choose to admit to another that I have no idea what I am doing, where anything is going and what is going on in my life I discover a new level of joy in my life. I surrender and allow myself to be lost.
I have intentions still, but I keep them broad. I know what my preferences are for my pleasure. I understand those that my ego seeks and those of my soul - for my soul’s expansion is one that requires deep courage and for this, I must surrender each breath and be lost in the present moment.
BEING LOST ALLOWS:
- Trust in myself and the world around me
- Have faith in my broader intentions always providing for me
- Grow and deepen my life experience
- Serve and help others more deeply
- Get excited about each day and its possibilities
- Feel well and have better energy flowing through my body, mind and soul
- Be more and do less
NOT SURE ABOUT IT? MAYBE TRY ADMITTING THIS TO SOMEONE AND SEE HOW YOU FEEL?
IF YOU DON’T HAVE SOMEONE THAT YOU WANT TO SAY IT TO, THEN I’M ALWAYS GOOD TO JOIN YOU IN SAYING IT.
Do you want further support to become more present?
Specific tools can aid coming into the present moment, trusting intuitive wisdom and knowing when to surrender. We explore these in the Embody Life Sanctuary with the kind support of the gentle community who honour each of our unique journeys.
Book a Clarity Call with me and let’s see how you can be held to account for each time your ego jumped in first! Forgiveness will always be by the front door for you at my place.
First published April 2017 by omegamovement.co.uk
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